the other wayfear

I don’t have anywhere to live.

∞06:46 pm, by sophiamaria ∩3

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? Your playing small does not serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we’re liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Marianne Williamson

∞09:12 am, by sophiamaria ∩8

[i need to write this on the walls of everywhere i am to be] [fear] [frustration]

‘Come to the edge,’ he said.
They said, ‘We are afraid.’
‘Come to the edge,’ he said.
They came.
He pushed them…
and they flew.

Guillaume Apollinaire

∞12:06 am, by sophiamaria ∩7

[poem] [poetry] [quote] [inspiration from another time in my life] [inspiration] [fear]

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Motion City Soundtrack — Point of Extinction

Are you listening, Javelina?
Every corner of the coast is still clear.
All dressed up with some medicine for luck,
how I hope that you’re still here when I return
Burning bridges is a form of suicide;
I saw the fires as the ghost of my life
passed me by and there’s nowhere you can hide
from the lessons or the lies that bind them.

-

Can we count on our conversations
to restore us like energon cubes?
Made one wish for a permanent kiss
that would echo through these bones like arsenic.
I can figure out the point of anything,
just not as quick as I can mess up my life.
With all my dreams hooked to hospital machines,
I think, “let’s try redefining beautiful.”

I’m not sure of my place and I don’t know why my nerves (I hate the word anxiety, okay?) have been taking over the past few days. It’s not as scary or debilitating as last time, but it’s there ~~all the time~~…most of the time.

The weekend scares me. Beautiful scares me. My potential scares me. Fuck, how many times have we covered this: everything scares me.

I hate being so shaky.

∞10:55 am, by sophiamaria ∩2

[fear] [motion city soundtrack] [point of extinction] [music] [lyrics]

I’m afraid of the day technology takes over, and I’m afraid it’s going to be in our lifetime. I’m afraid of when we will run out of good water and there is a war, and I’m afraid that will be in our lifetime, too. I’m just afraid. Of life, of death, of everything.

Fear is taking me over lately, and I don’t know what to make of it. It’s more than just what’s above, but it’s all things like that…too much change. I remember having these feelings once before, just as strongly and incessantly, and I got out of them with the comfort of religion. I don’t much like the idea of religion and I don’t think it’s something to take comfort in, it’s just something you believe or you don’t believe. I don’t like the idea of using something I may not really believe to delude myself into complacency.

Maybe it’s because I’m spending inordinate amounts of time alone. Maybe it’s a preexisting mood disorder affecting me in new ways. Maybe I just don’t see any meaning to life.

The worst part is….I’m scared of being this scared.

∞08:34 pm, by sophiamaria

[blog] [fear]

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Stop Making Friends/Pauley Perrette | Fear

Posting this again because I need to find a way to ingrain this message into my being.

∞11:07 am, reblogged by sophiamaria

[music] [pauley perrette] [fear] [stop making friends]

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Fear [Stop Making Friends/Pauley Perrette]

One of my favorite songs by one of my favorite celebrities <3

PS - I finally figured out how to convert to mp3 with iTunes. Now I can post so many of my favorites! So stoked for this.

∞12:34 pm, by sophiamaria

[Pauley perrette] [fear] [ncis] [stop making friends] [tv&movies] [music]