Why do I try to be around people? Not that I don’t like them, but this is complete torture and I kind of want to run away and cry.
I do like these people and I like spending time with them. So why can’t I just sit and talk with them without feeling completely overwhelmed? I’d liken it to feeling like I’m drowning, but in all the conversation going on around me instead of in water.
I know it’s completely ridiculous, but they’re just feelings. When I am around people successfully, it feels really good and fun and fulfilling. But this feels terrible, one of my least favorite things. Putting myself in this position is such an unpredictable risk.
Just something I need to figure out how to manage. I’ve known for a while, but haven’t come to many “solutions” or “answers.”
